yo miss b!

phantoms

2009-12-11T04:05:00.007-05:00

did i just imagine you? or did i just imagine everything all along?

i still love you.

2009-11-03T23:05:00.002-05:00

LOVE.HOPE.HATE.

2009-11-03T01:06:00.004-05:00

"I don’t truley know what these words mean. I say them, post pictures of them and write one lined text posts about them, but I really don’t know what they mean. I’m changing and growing and learing, but I think I might be going too slow. I want to know these things, but I’m afraid. I’m scared of growing up. Why grow up? Isn’t it a painful process? Doesn’t it kill your youth? or is it something beautiful, like a gradual transition in adulthood remiscent to that of a caterpillar becoming a buterfly? Over here I’m falling apart again. From a thing I call “love”. I think I love this person. She knows me so well, and says that I know her so well. She amazing. I think I love her, and we get along so well. I tell her everything, and I think she tells me everything. I don’t think I’ve ever hoped for anything, only wished for silly material things, and about hate. I’ve never hated anyone or anything. I also hope I never do. There are so many better things to do."

i can't put my finger on why, but this is one of the most sincere and insightful little writings that i've stumbled upon in a while. i haven't been around my blog lately, and i've been battling myself about my yomissb.com site, but this was something i really wanted to share with my readers (o: i hope you find some solace in it too.

#fatbastard

2009-10-19T20:26:00.003-04:00

spicy shrimp, spinach, and artichoke dip w/warm blue corn tortilla chips

grilled turkey burgers and sweet potato fries w/my favoritest roasted garlic aioli

close up, FTW

soooo... i'm addicted. it's a problem.

now can somebody come clean up this kitchen? i have a serious case of the itis, thanks.

lesson of the day:

2009-10-19T13:34:00.004-04:00

"don't judge people according to their appearance..."

pretty cool, huh?

it's a lesson we all have the hardest time learning. people aren't Naturally judgemental; when we're 1 and 2 years old, we don't discriminate.. judging, one of the worst habits, is a learned habit. it's taught to us by our parents, by our peers, by the general public, it's everywhere.. but we don't Have to do it.

love what you love, like what you like. sometimes the pages of the book are NOTHING like the cover.

photos by Peter Chmela

this is a PSA

2009-10-15T17:57:00.002-04:00

(chyea)

let's do it

2009-10-14T21:03:00.005-04:00

funny how i picked this fortune cookie tonight... i've been thinking a lot recently about how i've avoided doing certain things that i love doing, and a lot of that is purely circumstantial, either it's not the right time, or i'm not with the right person, or i don't have the means, or the tools, or i'm a little self-conscious, or i'm shy, or i'm just plain scared.

being scared is such a pointless emotion.... why should we be scared of anything? i wish i wasn't sometimes, and that i could snap myself out of it at the drop of a dime and instead feel excited... truth is, anything that's scary is probably also pretty healthy for you- unless it's drugs or something. lol. i just mean-- if something really makes you feel that strongly, to the point where your knees shake, and you start second guessing yourself, it's probably crucial to your growth as a human, and you should probably just do it.

and thank yourself later.

i really hope i can pull this thing off, this thing called life. it's new and it's scary, but i love it.

and i'm doing it. i'm gonna do the shit out of it.

(ps - i'm totally feeling my cuticle game right now... lol)

"If you don’t feel that you are possibly on the edge of humiliating yourself, of losing control of the whole thing, then probably what you are doing isn’t very vital."

John Irving

still.

2009-10-13T16:19:00.003-04:00

found.

monday funday

2009-10-12T11:11:00.004-04:00

toda cappuccino, double shot, two sugars

i've been treating you pretty poorly, huh? not a lot of writing on my blog these days, it's been highly neglected lol. first off i'll apologize for that, i've had a lot of you emailing me/twittering me/ leaving comments about how i never write anything personal anymore and it's somewhat of a disappointment.....

which is odd to me, because i feel like my personal life would really just make you pull your hair out! :oP

but let me take a quick minute to fill you guys in- i've been posting a lot of open-ended questions via twitter, all having to do with the content of my official website, which will be up and running soon thanks to ms. saudia furcron (click to visit her website)

i was interested in finding out what sorts of things you'd like to see on my site, if there were any subjects you'd like me to touch on, any specific people you'd like to see me interview, any crazy and somewhat ridiculous things you'd like me to do, etc.. this website is for You, for your entertainment, to give you something to look at when you need some inspiration or a good laugh, somewhere to reach out to if you need advice or a shove in the right direction, all of those things.

and as for those of you who are subscribed to my blog (which will pack its bags and move over to the official site) i would love nothing less than to see you make the transition with me, i am so appreciative of the people who make my blog a daily pit stop. i plan on having lots of giveaways and sweet stuff for those who have subscriptions to the new site. plus it's just nice seeing familiar faces. (o:

so all in all, as i ramble on from the jitters (how many times will i drink double shots on an empty stomach before i learn my lesson, geez) i hope some of what i said made some sense because i'm feeling under the weather and i've been told that my brain doesn't function right when i'm sick (lol. yes, i repeat myself and walk into doorways).

feel free to hit me and let me know your ideas! i'd love to hear from you.

i will give you plankton

2009-10-08T12:42:00.004-04:00

HAPPY THURSDAY EVERYONE!!!! (o:

put on your GTFOH face

2009-10-08T01:40:00.002-04:00

alright folks, i know i've been slacking in a MAJOR WAY with my posts, mostly because i've been busy getting content together for my official yomissb site, (which i'll keep you posted on!) but i just HAD to share this in the meantime.

i need to witness this in person at some point in my life....

appreciate!

i wonder how much this piece goes for.....

this chick is bananas

2009-10-05T16:44:00.005-04:00

just saw this tweet from my girl @alexisbelon and i almost died laughing. apparently, she is babysitting this child at the moment and can't stand the way she eats bananas...... i gotta admit. i was slightly disturbed, esp when she said to check the closeup shot of the lickdown, doubleyouteeFFFFFFF

it's even funnier if you listen to it with classical music playing in the background... i only know that because i had mozart on full blast via pandora, try it!

press play....

and press play.

thanks for the laughs, a!

visit alexis' blog:

a little salty

2009-10-03T09:21:00.002-04:00

herb is the word

2009-10-01T12:51:00.005-04:00

paint the sky...

2009-09-24T09:34:00.007-04:00

good morning!!

i saw someone color in the clouds once.

they did it with their smile.

now all i have left is crayons, but i make the most of it (o:

have a great day everyone.

(oh, and fyi, photobucket is being stingy, as you can see... all of my previous pictures disappeared, but they'll be back on the 28th [apparently]... until then, i made a new account because i couldn't possibly go without sharing the amazing sunrise. lots of love!)

the best thing about being a grownup is...

2009-09-21T21:27:00.002-04:00

being able to eat dessert wheneverrrrrrrr you please!

mmmmmmmm...chocolate mousse........ so simple to make yet deviously delicious.

naughty.

blackberry baby video premiere

2009-09-20T21:01:00.008-04:00

had to show some support to my friend, j. peguero!!!

congrats on the video, homie, all the best. (o:

and make sure to follow him on twitter!

snack of the day

2009-09-20T19:04:00.003-04:00

crab and cucumber salad / coconut shrimp curry with scallion stuffed crispy wonton rolls topped with red chili sauce and spicy mayo......... whaaaaaaaat!?!!!

we beasted these babies.

jordan year

2009-09-19T09:29:00.003-04:00

marble cake with buttercream frosting courtesy of my little sisters maddy and angel

(it used to be a whole cake and shaped like a caterpillar, but we'd been eating it all day before we even lit the candles. lol)

my birthday was perfect.

no, i didn't go out and act like a wild monkey, no, i didn't down 23 bottles of champagne, or have a party, or finally catch up with the billion people i've been meaning to celebrate with, it was private, quiet, meaningful, and everything i hoped it would be....

thank you to those who were a part of it

and those who remembered to send their love.

22, through...

2009-09-15T22:24:00.009-04:00

it's almost midnight... these are my last moments of being 22...

well... here goes...

i wanna shoot EVERYONE!

2009-09-14T08:32:00.003-04:00

after a good while of trying last night, i finally figured out how to use Shit Head.. (please refer back to here) and so i've got a couple snapshots that worked out. i posted them on twitpic, but people mostly don't see them, and they're not full size..

i think i'll be doing a lot more shooting today and just in general now that it doesn't frustrate me AS much, lol. i think i've got a nikon crush........ (o:

(ps, if you know me in person, you know i don't EVER show much skin, most definitely not my tum. i think i just got a lil burst of self-confidence w/this one, so keep the negative comments to yourself! :oP)

i caught the bug. now i wanna shoot EVERYONE!

the lesson of the day is

2009-09-10T09:38:00.006-04:00

payyyyyyy attentionnnnnnnn to what you're doinggggggg!

lol.

wish i could, but

2009-09-09T11:29:00.001-04:00

a smile a day keeps the therapist away

2009-09-08T13:12:00.003-04:00

this just made my day so far...

the lesson? adjust your shit till it's tailor made for YOU.

lots of love, miss b.

things aren't always as they seem.

2009-09-08T01:55:00.004-04:00

okay so forgive me, but i don't really know how this whole "single" thing goes.... i've had a boyfriend every single day of my life since i was like 13 years old... wtf is this all about? i mean, granted, there were time periods where even if i did have a boyfriend, i wouldn't see him for months on end, but i've never experienced the whole "dating" scene.... anyone i've ever seriously been involved with, i know everything about them because chances are i've known them for forever... yes, there have been newer faces but i've never really just ... WENT out there in the world and spontaneously met somebody and went through the whole dating process..

the last couple years of my life have been VERY interesting, they've changed me a lot and changed my future a lot.. i've met all of the right and wrong people and to be honest it's quite confusing.. i don't really know how to just... be.

i'm about to turn 23, my birthday is on the 16th (so don't forget!)... and i'm not really sure what that means. this birthday is a LOT different than last years... SUPER different than the year before, and even more from the years prior, but what does it all mean? is something miraculously going to happen to me when the clock strikes 12? (hopefully)

am i going to know how to handle my current situations?

will i not feel like i'm losing out by not loving the right or wrong person?

will it all make even the slightest bit of sense?

will i understand everything just a little bit, a LITTTTTTLE bit better and maybe feel a little more at ease?

we'll see.

but for now... jeez. this love thing is really throwing me curve balls.

i think it's just time to move onto something else.

like...

me.

things aren't always as they seem.

you know what they say...

2009-09-07T23:16:00.002-04:00

if you got it, flaunt it.

happy labor day!

2009-09-07T12:01:00.004-04:00

enjoy your last weekend of beach-related fun, kiddos. here comes fall!

spend time with your lover.

have a likkle drink

turn your dog into a sea turtle

get a tan

n make sure you enjoy all of the glorious natural wonders of beachdom.

bye bye summer..... it's been fun.

remember

2009-09-06T17:13:00.003-04:00

colourblind

2009-09-06T00:39:00.004-04:00

it's bedtime for b, just wanted to share this with you before i drifted off, it made me smile.

oh, and about last night...

2009-09-05T10:17:00.004-04:00

things i just remembered:

1) i totally had a dream last night that i was vintage-ing with my ex n looking at these weird ass glasses, n then there was this bin with stuffed animals and one was a huge monkey but in the shape of a pillow..... and then all of a sudden i'm sitting at a table with fabo, one of my girls, pac div (only it wasn't, it was ONE random person from myspace that i stored in my mind for some weird ass reason) and like three random twitter chicks n me n fab were goofin on the pac div kid n he was REALLY REALLY grumpy n i was wearing a pullover with a huge Mr T face on it. ::::wtffffff::::

2) apparently, dudes who have been cast on any of the real world series genuinely think that that's enough to make anyone wanna hang out with them.... ummmmmm no. you spilled your drink on me literally 6 times and you were wearing a headband.

YOU WERE WEARING A HEADBAND.

next!

3) almost had to knock a bitch out in the bathroom... no seriously, yes, me, all 5'0" of me... i scared myself because i was NOT SCARED AT ALL n the chick was like a foot taller than me. i don't know where my hood came from but i went so far as to flipping her hair in her face... wtf? i need to chill.

4) just because you drive a bentley, does not mean i will get in the car with you... so please don't grab me by the arm and try to kidnap me when you're a complete stranger, or in fact, ever. i'm unkidnappable.

5) for some reason, everyone i saw was SO drunk and telling me their deepest darkest secrets... why do people do this with me? it's a strange phenomena.

6) i definitely almost busted my ask when i didn't see the step down to the table area.

i also definitely did NOT bust my ass because i'm sick like that.

i even did a curtsey afterwards.

lol.

7) shit, i left my jacket in lisa's car. grr

oh well.

too bad i have this gigantic camera and my point n shoot is point blank dead. )o:

would've had tons of pictures to share with you!

until next time........

facial analysis

2009-09-04T16:34:00.005-04:00

i was doing some research on facial analysis and recognition, and i stumbled across a site that analyzes your facial features mostly based on proportions to determine how "beautiful" you are. it was pretty interesting when i did it to myself, because i don't agree with the number whatsoever (i wonder if i had "whiter" features maybe the analysis would've been different.. my nose is too wide for my face? thank god it doesn't analyze skin color, jeez).... in fact it actually ended up making me a little self-conscious so i don't recommend the site at ALL. lol.

but instead i used it to compare my face with a face that i absolutely adore!

LOL.

oh max, you're still the boy i fancy most.

try it out at your own discretion:

dedicated to your silly side

2009-09-03T21:27:00.006-04:00

i LOVE to laugh.

i love to Make people laugh.

i love to laugh With people!

so in honor of laughter-ites everywhere,

i've decided to post a bunch of videos that do it for me every. single. time.

numero uno:

numero dos:

(i can't understand him, but i imagine he is excited to have hold of a camera and quite possibly mocking an adult, lol)

numero trois (i jst realized i can only count in english and french):

FOUR!

cinq!

and SIX.

hope you got more than a couple giggles.... (o:

counting sheep

2009-09-03T03:31:00.002-04:00

goodnight world... we're gonna see how many i can count tonight.

nikon hate. up. date.

2009-09-02T21:02:00.004-04:00

it is driving me absolutely insane.

it is making me feel inadequate.

all my pictures SUCKKKKKK with this thing.

i know what i'm gonna name him.

shit head.

no middle name, just shit. head.

somebody better teach me how to use this thing before i sell it to the gypsies!!!!!

grrrrr

)ox

nikon love.

2009-09-02T11:17:00.010-04:00

sooooo.... what i WANTED to do was invite you to come sit with me and open my bag of goodies

buttttt things obviously didn't work out that way.

i COULD have edited the clips into one on iMovie but

a) i'm too lazy and fat this morning and

b) i kinda like the absurdity of it all since it'll probably never happen again becauseeeeeeee of my NEW camera! woohoo!

nevertheless, enjoy if you can. :oP

any of you speak russian??

2009-09-02T00:00:00.004-04:00

i just randomly stumbled upon this and thought it was SUPER NEAT-O and wanted to share... if you know of any other stuff like this send it over! i love it.

hope you enjoy!

for my ladies (o:

2009-09-01T12:18:00.006-04:00

five four clothing

2009-09-01T11:12:00.005-04:00

my girl mir put me onto this brand called "five four"... i think it's lovely, so i wanted to share. (o: i love a dude in clean, neat, and classic-fitting clothing. a little dorkiness makes my heart flutter. you girls can have all the fly boys, i'll take the dude in the glasses with the wrinkly button down and freckles.

click photos below to link to five four's fall '09 lookbook

and don't forget to follow them on twitter!

boys vs men vs women vs girls

2009-09-01T09:50:00.003-04:00

love, sex, relationships, we're born thinking about and developing at least one of the three. it seems like we all ask the same questions, right?

i thought it'd be interesting to take a look at what people REALLY wanna know...

when we're young, we ask:

and then we grow up and ask ourselves...

what happened to our innocence? is the world that crass? aren't those drop screens effing hilarious? i wonder if we'd have saved ourselves a bunch of trouble had we just gotten the real answers to our questions when we were young.........

just something to think about.

ten chances to change your life

2009-08-31T10:52:00.004-04:00

i'm a HUGEEEEE blogscoper. yes, scoper. scourer, even. whenever i have free time (ha) i try to find the most obscure and imaginative sites that really inspire me to create. my poor poor computer has folder upon folder upon folder of absolutely AMAZING photo collections, i barely scratch the surface of using them here on my blog.

one of the folders i have is labeled "stuff that says stuff"

i looked in it this morning and found a few little snapshots i thought you might all appreciate on this dreary monday afternoon...

i hope these simple yet thought-provoking images help to put a smile on your face or a wrinkle in your brain. heck, maybe even both.

enjoy!

there you go. ten images, ten chances to change your train of thought, your aspect on things, your self-perception, your day, your week, your month year and hopefully your life...

...if you let them.

spotlight: iluvlola

2009-08-30T11:39:00.008-04:00

my first memories of lola were ones formed in myspace land (RIP)

i remember seeing her picture, she was in a hoodie, leaning on a balcony, with a smug little look on her face, and i couldn't help but be curious as to who she was, what she did, and what she was about...

so i went to her page.

n she was sick.

smart, driven, articulate, and not tooooo harsh on the eyes :oP

get to know her, she's one of the special ones, and i'm honored to feature her for my second spotlight.

You can call me: Miss Lola, Iluvlola, The Big Gun, Miss L, and for the good friends is Lolis [lol]

My birthday is: January 26, 1985

I live in: Well that's a little tough because I'm never in one place for too long, but I guess you can say I live in Toronto [Mississauga is the actual suburban city]. However....you can catch me in a city near you at any given time...Mi-Yayo, NY, ATL, LA...love to travel, network, and socialize.

My hustle is: I don't have a main hustle and a side hustle. I have a whole bunch of hustles. I write...I've been writing for over 4 years now. I started off writing for HipHopCanada [Largest online hip-hop media outlet in Canada] as the writing director and after 4 years there I decided to resign the position [but still remain one of the senior writers] due to the amount of work that was coming my way through Lola Media Group [my media company.] I currently write on a regular basis for Cream World Magazine, where I have my own column titled On The Go With Lola, where I get to talk about all the traveling, work, business adventures and the people I am fortunate to meet. I am also very focused on developing and maintaining my website/blog [Like a LOT of other people] www.iluvlola.net. The purpose of the site is not to blog about personal experiences and opinions, but rather to introduce new material and products to the public. There are always new people contributing, and I will be starting to have guest bloggers as well [maybe your favorite DJ or your favorite producer, heck even ur favorite rapper may be writing a word or 2! POW] I also work with Maxamus Entertainment [Canada's largest and most successsful event/lifestyle company] as the online marketing director. I sometimes also book the talent that we work with. As part of Maxamus I've had the pleasure of working with Akon, Kardinal Offishall, Alicia Keys, Rick Ross, Fabolous, Lebron James & Robin Thicke, and most recently we hosted Young Dro and Big Boi [Outkast] for Caribana. Under my Lola Media Group I provide services such as consulting, writing, product placement, online marketing, PR, press kit development, event-coordination and more. I am currently working with Canadian gold-selling rapper Belly in Miami on his online marketing campaign. I also freelance write for online publications and magazines and contribute stories to them and I help promote, co-ordinate or host different events as well! [Phew that was long]

You may recognize me from: Mainly people recognize me from the interviews I have done and the work in front of the camera, rather than the behind the scenes consulting, so I'll say HipHopCanada and the interviews I conducted there, as well as ILuvlola.net.

So far, my journey has been: Tremendous. There are things that I wish I could go back and do again, with the knowledge I have now, but I don't regret anything at all. I've some ups and downs like everyone else, but I have had the opportunity to build with people that I have the outmost respect for. It can get tough, but nothing good comes easy.

I feel alive the most when: I'm interacting with other people. I enjoy spending alone time, but too much alone time can get me depressed. I love life when I'm surrounded by laughter, happy people, good conversation...and some good music doesn't hurt!

My most memorable working experience has been: Wow, there have been so many...I really can't pinpoint just one or another. Interview wise I would have to say interviewing Marc Ecko for his "Be Unlimited" campaign in NY earlier this year. He is SUCH a successful individual and to be able to sit in his office for over an hour and talk about everything from music to fashion, to art, to photography, to writing, was an incredible learning experience. Event wise I'd have to say the Rick Ross Caribana party last year with Maxamus Entertainment. It was hectic...

My necessary tools are: My brand new Macbook, blackberry, and digital camera.

The biggest career risk I've taken was: As a side hustle I also worked for the bank, which is still there if I want to go back to it. I don't think I have taken any major risks because at 24 I feel I am still young enough to be able to switch careers, however I have dedicated a lot of my time to something that solely depends on me, rather than on an established business venture. Working for the bank I could have a more solid job...with money that I know will be coming in every 2 weeks because I've worked. In the music business nothing is certain. You're always on a limbo. So I guess you can say the biggest career risk was to go for something without clear guidelines, rules, policies, or pay, rather than go for something with a defined structure and more steady income.

If there's one rule I follow, it's: Listen to your gut. Always. If your gut tells you something ain't right...something ain't right. We always have a choice...in everything that we do; whether personal or business, and if your got tells you what you're about to do ain't a good move, it probably isn't.

The best thing about my job is: The people. Many say that in the music business you deal with a lot of "rotten" people. There are a lot of liers, backstabbers, fakes, greedy and jealous people.. yes that is true. This industry however also has some of the most driven individuals you will find in life; some of the hardest go getters. Sure in a suit-and-tie environment you will find a lot of older people who have done a lot of schooling, spent a lot of money, and made a lot, but you would never get to meet a 17 year old with the business sense and the mind frame of a 30 year old [ Go get 'em Hustlegrl The entertainment industry gives opportunities to a lot of people...from all walks of life, so as "rotten" as people may come, you have to take the best out of everyone and understand that you have more acquaintances than friends.

I am currently in love with: My Jessica Simpson shoes, My new manicure, Miami, and the Fabolous album.

I can't wait until: I get my own big house on the beach....

My guilty pleasures are: Edamames [Also known as Soya Beans...] Sushi, Dark Chocolate and sappy love movies.

I believe that everyone should: Respect themselves first. Others will follow suit.

In the future, I hope to: Become a marketing guru and connect the dots all over the world. I want to be able to make a difference and bring some sort of change to everything I get involved in.

I would highly suggest: I guess this is where all my promo goes. Check out iluvlola.net [Because It's a dope site] Check out Belly and Snoop Dogg - Hot Girl and pick up your copy of Cream World Magazine available in every Chapter... Oh and make sure you follow me on Twitter

thanks lola!!!

click image above to visit lola's site!

photo credits:

a properganda

brian cleaver for cream magazine

photo will

it's sunday again...

2009-08-30T11:34:00.001-04:00

a bright red phone!

2009-08-29T22:39:00.003-04:00

i love stuff like this.

confession: i sing around the kitchen.

a daily grind(er)

2009-08-29T09:08:00.004-04:00

have you ever reached a point where everything that Used to be comfortable.... isn't so comfortable anymore? it's 9:11am (go figure) and i woke up feeling SO WEIRD today... i feel like everything that used to be stable for me was actually a roller coaster, anything that used to hold me down actually Threw me out into the abyss, everyone that smiled actually cried, and it all feels so overwhelming. this whole transitional phase for me has been very eye-opening and so difficult.. but absolutely necessary.

if you ask a 5 year old how to find yourself, they'll laugh. it sounds ridiculous.

"you're right here" they'll say, "look in the mirror, see?"

but what if you look and you're not there yet?

it SHOULD be that easy, shouldn't it?

manifest plainness,

embrace simplicity,

reduce selfishness,

have few desires.

-lao tzu

mornin, sunshine.

2009-08-28T06:40:00.000-04:00

why am i awake right now...

happiness.

2009-08-27T12:13:00.000-04:00

some get it, others don't. some won't, others can't.

shit is getting a little ridic.....

2009-08-26T00:16:00.001-04:00

oh the mockery!

yikes! update....

2009-08-25T22:22:00.000-04:00

::sigh::

shortly after the pictures from my last post were taken, my little sister knocked my camera off the dining room table... it fell on the floor... and it never recovered.

luckily i was able to snag the rest of the pictures off of it before i chucked it in the trash, and i wasn't really upset at all. he's had a good run, it was his time to go. if she hadn't done that by accident, quite frankly, it would've just prolonged my procrastination. i've been needing a new camera, a REAL camera, a GROWNUP camera for a long while now, so i would assume that this is where the buck stops and i take my ask to the store.

yes, i said "ask".

RIP camera.

you suuuuuuureeeeee have seen a WHOLE lot in the last two years!

(my secrets die with you, my love. my secrets die with you.)

any new flickster suggestions? send em my way via comment! i'd love to hear your thoughts.

(oh. and RIP manicure too.)

i can't help it

2009-08-25T21:36:00.000-04:00

i apologize in advance for the picture quality, there was a lot of steam and therefore a lot of blur!

i'm starting to feel like i have a serious problem with food.... i'm ALWAYS cooking something!!!!! i diagnosed myself today with the unfortunate condition called CCD, also known as "Compulsive Cooking Disorder"... (yes. i came up with that myself.) lol. but this is the lastttttt food i'll post today, I PROMISE!

what'd i eat for dinner, you ask?

so we start off with a salad of baby greens

and to accompany it a toss up of mango, avocado, papaya, julienned jicama and red onion

dressed in a fresh red wine vinaigrette

my favorite saffron rice in the whole wide world

cast-iron grilled mojo chicken with a touch of honey and cracked black pepper to finish

if you know me you know i can't live without sweet potatoes, so i grilled em (o:

guilt-free!

broiled shrimp with a cilantro and roasted lime glaze

and that, my friends, concludes the fat bastard portion of the evening.

i'll spare you from reading a dessert post.

(though i'm tempted. we're making nutella and white chocolate pizza topped with toasted pignoli nuts.... whaaaaa)

what'd you eat for dinner tonight?

oh for the love of luncheon!

2009-08-25T13:21:00.000-04:00

honey maple turkey/swiss/red onion/stone ground honey mustard/turkey bacon/roasted garlic aioli/avocado on a toasted french roll

snap happy

2009-08-25T11:01:00.000-04:00

i haven't posted in a while, but yesterday we went fishing at the inlet here, and it was gorgeous..

too bad i didn't take pictures of us actually Fishing.

:oP

we went snap happy in the car.

enjoi--vite!

oh and btw. those pringles wheat sticks totally made us throw up. we don't eat piggies, and guess what one of the ingredients is?

PORK EXTRACT!

yuck yuck yuck yuck yuck.

it was awful. you've been warned.

lol.

OH! and no, we didn't catch any fish.

i eat, therefore i cook.

2009-08-22T11:28:00.000-04:00

there isn't much better than a meal that takes 20 minutes and tastes like you're licking the floors of heaven.

besides the actual floors of heaven, i guess.

mussels in a creamy garlic tomato broth

served over a bed of perfectly cooked al dente linguini

it didn't know

what hit it.

i'm obsessed with cooking. we almost went out to this italian place last night, but somebody uhh had a wardrobe malfunction. so i had to run to the grocery store and swipe up a couple ingredients to make our own little meal at home.

it was delicious! everything happens for a reason. :oP

and speaking of cooking, i really really really wanna go see that movie about julia child.... i saw the trailer for it so long ago and was super excited, but i know none of my friends will go cuz it seems kinda lame. lol. i'll just go by myself.

i'm starving after writing all of this. time to go make some food!

itz duckies pond!

2009-08-21T09:03:00.000-04:00

i had the pleasure of meeting duckie (formerly geia (o: ) via twitter, where after a short time period she asked me if i'd answer a handful of short but sweet interview questions for her.... of course, i obliged. and what charming little questions they were. she's a young, fast-paced, fresh-faced blogger whose virtual expression grows more rich by the day, a sweetheart, she's super intelligent, and almost too determined for her own little good.

can't wait to see where SHE is in five years.

thanks duckie!

for the rest of the interview, click:

klep one.... or two or three

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i like his handwriting.

how could i NOT smile today when i received this in the mail? i got a dope lil package from my homie @KLEPONE today! since he works at a label and knew i liked this band, he sent me a bunch of memorabilia along with some peanut butter (?) lol. gotta love it.

my tastes in music varies greatly, but i love White Lies, esp when i'm feeling artsy. (o:

make sure you check out Klep at:

http://twitter.com/klepone

http://myspace.com/klepone

Death - White Lies

sickness

2009-08-18T18:38:00.002-04:00

Minilogue - Animals from ljudbilden on Vimeo.

back the eff UP!

2009-08-18T16:02:00.000-04:00

you ever feel just a liiiiiiittttttleeeeee bit....

smushed?

yesterday was a bit rocky for me, i gotta admit. things aren't always as they seem!

i made it to tuesday so far, and that's all that counts.

smile on, b. smile on.

bad habits

2009-08-16T22:56:00.001-04:00

somebody needs to lock up the kitchen come 9:00 otherwise i'll be up ALL NIGHT scheming on the fat bastard cookbook.

mmmmm but it's just soooooooo GOOOOOOODDDDDDDDD!!!!!

tonight's naughty indulgence: baked cinnamon twists with a cream cheese iced glaze, put on your GTFOH faces, folks, it's going down.

(even more wrong that i have most FB evidence in the background. smh. syh. saoh. lol.)

celebrititis

2009-08-16T17:13:00.000-04:00

why are we sooooo incredddddibly obsessed with celebrity?

i've had a good amount of people ask me why i don't write about anyone famous, or why i do it so sparsely.. i mean i get it, some people like to live vicariously through others... but seriously- NOTHING is sacred anymore. it's hard to say any of this without sounding cliché but it's just so real. i could never fully click with anyone who is more into the developing lives of others rather than developing their own.... and don't get me wrong, i'll admit, i've fallen victim to reading and have gotten more than a few chuckles out of the bafoonery that happens to be publicized but when it comes down to it, it means nothing. we're all human. that limelight is HARSH.

very.

reiiiiiggggggggnnnnnnnn it in, people.

write about YOU.

create inspiration for YOURSELF.

you're beautiful.

we all are.

i'd like to think that i'm taking advantage of the small part of the world i have control over, and writing and sharing content that i find meaningful, motivational, and sometimes therapeutic. i can't apologize for the information i choose to share here, this is all Me.

and for now, i'll leave the celebrity to the rest of the .coms

the ghost of miss b

2009-08-16T16:35:00.002-04:00

dear stalkers, haters, loathers, and demons alike:

2009-08-16T15:15:00.000-04:00

get festive!

should we go outside?

2009-08-16T08:53:00.001-04:00

"The moment when you first wake up in the morning is the most wonderful of the twenty-four hours. No matter how weary or dreary you may feel, you possess the certainty that, during the day that lies before you, absolutely anything may happen. And the fact that it practically always doesn't, matters not a jot. The possibility is always there." ~Monica Baldwin

carry a little life in your pocket today and don't forget to share (o:

happy sunday.

thank you for finding this, i'll never understand how you knew i was looking for it.

it's time

2009-08-16T00:54:00.000-04:00

to get up, get out and....

i just thought this series was absolutely incredible... some of my most vivid dreams are EXACTLY like this... i feel like i'm flying, it's amazing.

waking up from those kinds of dreams isn't the easiest. i always wish they'd never end.

something inside tells me i can do it though.

i can fly.

can you?

all it takes is a little heart...

a lot of focus...

and a sprinkle of faith.

TRANSFORM.

today had its ups and downs, but in the end, i smiled. it felt good to feel my wings finally start growing again. i'll never thank you enough.

wherever you're going, make sure you fly.